Thanksgiving blues!

Well do much for diet and excercise the last couple of days! To be honest, I haven't done a horrible job with my eating, but excercise, well lets just say I don't want to talk about it right now! haha! I got my period (TMI i know) but it makes me so lazy! I get cramps so bad and I just don't want to move and I want to be lazy for four days! So thats where I have been with that! I have a sleep study to do on tuesday night and I am so not looking forward to it. I don't want to go and I am really nervous because I am not very comfortable with the idea of sleeping in the basement of the clinic and have people watching me. creeepy! I haven't posted any pictures because I actually didn't take any picturs on thanksgiving.. whoops. I did however go to walmart on black friday, that was pretty interesting! I didn't get much because I wasn't really needing anything and I wasn't really planning on any big purchases so I just got myself a couple dvds. I basically go to do a little bit of people watching because some people go crazy! well.. im not in the greatest mood today.. you know, pmsing and all.. so ill get back tomorrow :D

UGH! ARE YOU KIDDING ME???

So maybe starting this new diet and excercise thing wasn't the smartest thing to do right before thanksgiving haha we have so many pies and sweets and yummy food filling the house and it is all soo tempting! Today went well though, I worked a little on my book, took the dogs for a walk and went and picked up my meds. On the 29th I have a sleep study I have to go to, so we shall see how that goes.. for now though I am going to go work on some homework and then get some rest! I will post some thanksgiving pictures tomorrw night :D

A very late epiphany!

So.. I was reading through some weight loss goals.. and I read one mans success story saying how he tried diet after diet but he was making sure huge adjustments that he wasn't used to and it was too sudden that he wasn't dedicated to turn it into a lifestyle change so the diet and excercise plan would fail. This makes me realize something... I need to figure out what I can do to change TODAY to take a step forward to a healthier lifestyle. I need to make choices as they come, and not plan for next month and next year. So here goes.. Tomorrow is going to be a new day. Right now I am not used to doing a lot so I am going to take it a ittle bit at a time and see how things work. My body is extremely low on b12 so I have been taking supplements. I just went shopping for clothes to inspire me and I still have my "skinny" clothes in my closet that constantly inspire me to lose weight and get healthy and tomorrow is day number one!

I am going to start by setting my alarm. This doesn't sound like much, but I can no longer sleep in until noon. I plan to wake up no later than 9am. I am going to take my dog for a walk, I am only planning on a 15 minute walk because, if I over plan and fail, I am going to be severely disapointed. I am going to work on my eating habits tomorrow as well. I am going to start measuring my food intake and no more unhealthy snacking! I also would like to work on my kickboxing but that may not be tomorrow. Like I said, I am not going to over plan.. I am going to work on changing here and now.

I feel like this is a good plan, and I feel like it can work, but I can only take it one step at a time otherwise I am doomed for failure. I am sick of setting myself up for failure, so instead, I am going to succeed if it kills me ;)

Very long day....

Even though I didn't really do anything! I wake up in the morning with so many plans, but nothing seems to get accomplished. I didn't even write a single word in my book.. bummer! I did do some grocery shopping with my mom for thanksgiving because her back was killing her. When we got home, I had Paul help pop my back because it was bothering me! I am pretty excited for thanksgiving. I am hoping that soon I have even more to be thankful for! Don't get me wrong, I have a lot to be thankful for right now, I am just hoping that, very soon, a child is among those things. I am finding my facebook to be extremely distracting throughout my day. Today, I woke up at about 6:50 am and did the dishes and cleaned the living room because I was bored, then around 8 I was bored so I crawled back into bed with Paul but woke up with a headache. I had some coffee and watched Cars and then went grocery shopping with my mom, came home, monkeyed around on facebook and right now I am sitting in bed.. wondering where my day went, I didn't really do anything, and the day seemed to drag on for forever.. I guess I need to start making myself a to do list and trying to accomplish more of the items on that list throughout the day. I didn't get a work out in.. a walk, nothing. Just a little bit of shopping!. Ugh something needs to change.. I am getting too dang depressed about everything and anything that happens throughout the day. We shall see how things go tomorrow.

Getting to know me, and why I need this blog

Well, let me start by saying, I have tried using a blog, probably four times now, and I just cant seem to keep it going. I need it though because I am about to go insane! I have my darling husband but something he just doesn't seem to understand some of the things that I am stressing about.. such as, getting to a much healthier weight, and trying to get pregnant. I am not entirely sure why I haven't been able to get pregnant but I am really stressing out and I am starting to wonder why everyone around me is getting pregnant at the drop of a dime. Thats why im here, to vent, and cry and scream and throw a fit and just talk and discuss and review, and whatever else could possibly be on my mind! I am not sure how the "follower" thing works but I plan on being quite active with this blog and I hope to meet some amazing people, maybe even in the same boat that I am in, kind of like moral support from wherever ;)

My husband and I got married April 25, 2008 and we really want children. Before I married him, I didn't want children at all, and now it consumes me. We have two dogs and one cat, and we treat them like they are out children, but thats not the same obviously. I am unemployed right now, and currently looking for work because I am not sure how much longer I can do this non working thing because I am getting bored out of my mind. I want to lose a lot of weight and be comfortable with myself as well as look good and be healthy. I have quite the journey ahead of me and hopefully I meet some new people and get to hear their stories along the way!